Nov

10

A Gentle Migraine’s Wake of Fear

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migraineA strange thing happened to me.  I had all the signs of a migraine, dizziness and a ringing in my ears. I ran to my purse swallowed down three Aleve and prepared for the pain.  I closed the drapes, got in my jammies and went pee because when I have to pee during a migraine it is horrible to have ot get the the bathroom and back.  Then I laid down and waited for the wave of misery I knew was coming.

 

It didn’t come, but it took me a full hour of lying there before I believed it.  I came out of my blacked out room to find my husband looking almost like a deer in the headlights. “What are you doing?” he asked.  I didn’t know what to say.  After eleven years of marriage I have never once been wrong about a migraine and whenever I have said I am getting a migraine it is a generally accepted rule in my home that I will hide out in my room and not emerge for at least four of five hours.

 

I wish that I could draw some sort of comfort from this fluke false migraine.  There is no doubt that I had the signs of a real migraine and my head did feel sensitive later which it always does when the original pain subsides.  I should be grateful I know.  But I don’t like it when my body changes the patterns I trust to be consistent for me.  While this migraine blew over gently, I am left wondering if it could swing the other way. Maybe the next one will do th opposite andfail to respond to the pain killers, or leave my blind and in agony for days?

 

I hate to be a pessimist, but fear and migraines are best buddies. I would rather things stay the way they are then to risk the teeter totter of the unknown.